This weekend was a time I have been looking forward to and afraid of for months. MAYfest (music, art and yoga) was happening and I was presenting three times! I was scheduled to do two lectures on my book The Sweet Ass Self-Help Book and a Live Music Blindfolded Chakra Balancing Dance Class.
I was so excited because this was my first time as a presenter at a festival.
I was scared because this was my first time as a presenter at a festival.
Fear and excitement are basically the same things. The only difference is there is breath in excitement.
I remember the first time I ever did a workshop for people. It was a Sugar Blues talk at a health food store that I had worked for at the time. The night before I threw up. I prayed that no one would show up. But people did and I spoke to them and I didn’t die. It was a miracle! This time I was normal person nervous which even though it can be very uncomfortable, is something I’m extremely grateful for. If I wasn’t afraid of anything I would hang out in tiger cages and jump out of planes without a parachute. Thank goodness I feel afraid of things or I would not be here writing these words. The fear that I felt did feel the same physically as if I was being chased by a wild hyena. I felt it and asked myself, “If I do this lecture and dance class is my life in danger?” The answer was obviously a no and so even though I felt the fear and every cell of my body was yelling, “Run!!!” I decided that I should feel the fear and do the classes anyway.
A couple of hours before my first lecture I was deciding if I should sit in my cabin and go over what I wanted to say and freak out a little or if I should go to Marti Nikko and DJ Drez’s yoga class. I chose Continue reading